ketsan's Blog

I like paintball partly because it's one of the few places I can be as aggressive as I naturally am. It occurs to me that most of my squad's missions are in the rear. It occurs to me that if we're going to be there anyway we should really start fucking them in the ass.

If we're running around hitting them where and when we please, attacking them as they come out of their base, ambushing them as they move towards the front line then we can take the enemy commander's mind. If his focus is on defending his base, if he is worrying about what is going on in his rear areas then maybe he'll try to defend them.

This bleeds off troops that would otherwise be fighting on the front and forces them to be inactive and useless in the rear and if our troops have any balls then this should allow them to push forward, especially if we assualt their main force from the rear a couple of times, make them feel surrounded and isolated, split their fire a bit. Maybe even give them the impression that the main assault will come from their rear.

We can induce a spirit of defenciveness and caution in the enemy, grind his morale down.

Yeah. I think we have a plan.

Looks like I'm playing (fighting?) the campaign day on Sunday. Mixed feelings about it. On one hand it's paintball and I love paintball. For the first time my entire squad will be playing (all five of us) so that'll be awesome. On the other hand the team that my squad is part of got raped last year, in fact for the five years that Diamond wars has been playing our side has been raped. We've only been playing a year though and we're doing awesome, some days we bring home 40% of the score which isn't bad for less than 5% of the force.

I'm meeting with Richard tomorrow to talk tactics. As a squad we're used to operating as a two or three man team and now we have five so potentially that means we can work as two squads if we want, I'm not sure if I prefer that or working as one big squad.

Five is quite a big squad for the kind of tactics we use. Sneaking two or three guys through enemy lines is easy, I'm not sure about five though. The other thing to consider is that one of our team is new, not to paintball but to the way we play. He's the kind of guy that gets into firefights over bushes, which is what most of our team does which is why loose; the idea of completing missions to score points hasn't quite dawned on them.

The thing that really bothers me is that they've created this new faction which apparently is 15  hand picked players, no doubt with all the right kit and their job is to fuck things up. Problem one that probably strips desperately needed good players from our team, problem two, our command is so inept that it can't fight one team, never mind two.

Supposedly they've learned their lesson from the previous five years of getting raped but I doubt it. Literally their tactical thinking extends to launching frontal assaults against entrenched positions. None of these have worked, ever, and yet they've never thought to do something different. I honestly don't think they realise there are different things they could do and it pisses me off.

Literally I was in the command post saying "Give me six guys and I'll take that position" because I'd been there, looked at it, formed a plan to infiltrate it and fight at close quarters where my lot are awesome, and take it. And they kept on refusing. The fortunate thing now is that with five people I'm probably able to do that kind of thing by myself. It's not like the opposition are lead by Napoleon, it takes them HOURS to figure out our dispositions.

See our squad goes and has a look at the front line, reconnaissance is very important to us, and generally it's the case that one flank is non-existent. In fact it's often the case that both flanks are non-existent and both sides are massed in a huge fire fight in the middle of the field. The field is so big that this isn't readily apparent but that's generally how things are,

Well anyone in command with even a basic grasp of tactics would be wetting themselves with excitement. I was. Our command wasn't. They ordered another frontal assault, which bogged down in the same place as they always do.

 

 

 

Since I started saying "I'll put links in my blog" there's been a real drop off in the number of people messaging me with insults and criticisms; as in it's stopped. Completely. Usually if I slag off feminism a whole bunch of illiterates email me telling me that I'm wrong. Not why I'm wrong, just that I am wrong, usually with some ad hominems thrown in. I suspected this was because they haven't done the reading needed to substantiate any kind of opinion other than a fucking stoopid one.

Now? Silence. So I'm right; when confronted with knowledge and facts people STFU.

By the way I have this wacky definition of illiteracy. Its not just the inability to read, it's the inability to read up on ideas and propositions that you profess to believe. So creationists are invariably illiterate because they'll get the science wrong which indicates that they've never read up on it. Feminists often are totally illiterate; they haven't read a feminist text in their entire lives.

Christians are a bizarre case of illiteracy. Often they just haven't read the bible at all, others have read the bible but either they've done daily readings rather than just sit down and read the fucking thing like any other book or they've read one gospel, then another and never thought to compare one to another and never ever looked to see what the early church fathers wrote and they're not even interested in biblical scholarship or what textual analysis has to say.

I mean most Christians don't even realise that the gospels are inconsistent and the ones that do don't realise they're inconsistent because they belong to different theologies and completely different ideas about Christianity. John's Jesus is not the same as Luke's Jesus or Mark's Jesus.

This is why there are thirty thousand different denominations and why atheists generally hold to five or so positions on Christianity; atheists have done the reading and have a clearer picture, that's why they're atheists because anyone who is literate according to my definition could never believe it.

 
 

Occasionally someone says I'm a misogynist or anti-women or something and its not true.  It is true that I generalise, I check and test my generalisations as much as I can to make sure they're generally true so that I am right more than I'm wrong that way I have several quick rules of thumb for assessing situations so what I say here will be, as far as I can tell, generally be accurate.

So with that caveat my reasoning behind my attitude to women is based on this:

I usually bum around in black: see my story about this. When I dress like this no woman in the world is interested in me. It's literally never happened that woman has shown any interest in me while so dressed.
Occasionally though I dress up, I have some very expensive shirts and trousers and shoes and a couple of VERY nice suits. When so dressed I often spend all night having random women using all manner of daft pretext to strike up conversations.

Certain conclusions beg to be drawn from this.

When dressed up if I mention that I'm a student her eyes drop, the smile fades a little, the hair gets less attention, the body turns away slightly, the questions stop coming and the flirting dries up. If I be mysterious and ask her to guess or if I flat out lie there comes a point where she either wants to come home with me or she wants my number.

Draw whatever conclusions from this you may.

Get a group of guys together and put alcohol into them and sooner or later the conversation turns to politics, religion, philosophy, history etc. The number of women who can talk about anything that doesn't fall into the categories of "Looking good" and "gossip" is really quite small and most women become really quite bored really quite quickly if you bring anything other than these subjects up.

This incidentally is how I explain why the vast majority of leading intellectuals are men; women are often intelligent enough, but they're just not interested. I know many very intellectual guys, I know of only a couple of very intellectual women. Again, don't misunderstand me, intelligent women are common, intellectual women are not.

This is probably the shakiest part of my reasoning but women the next time you're around your females friends house do a count of the number of books she has and do the same at your male friends houses.

Sex and money:

There is no sex without some form of payment. None. At best there is no sex without some kind of assumption of future payment. Either you're outright handing her the cash, which is the most honest form of sexual relationship or you're buying her drinks/gifts/dresses/shoes/nights out and so constitutes payment in kind or offering her a future financially supportive relationship which is promise of future payment for services rendered.

Look at rich guys, how many of them have fat wives? Yeah. How many attractive women go out with men who are less well off than they are? If you are not instinctively recognising a pattern here that you've seen in your own life either you're blind or deep in denial.

Now I'm not saying any of this is conscious. Women are not sitting their coldly calculating how much they can get but they are biologically programmed by evolution to flash the gash to get the cash. Men cannot sell sex. If I say "escort" or "stripper" or "whore" you see a woman. Why? Because you know that women never pay for sex; the cash flow is all one way.

If a man sets himself up as a male escort he's never going to make anywhere near as much money as a woman will and there will always be fewer male escorts because sex is easy to get if you're female; there is no need to pay and so the market is smaller.

I submit that I have made statements of cold hard fact that represent the general pattern of human behavior.

Attitudes to sex:

If a woman uses a photo of her genitals as her avatar that's fine, no-one will complain. If she sends it random guys, that's fine, no-one will complain. If she offers sex to those random guys that's fine, no-one minds. Now if a guy has a picture of his genitals as his avatar women complain, if they're sent photos of penises, they complain, if they're offered sex, they complain.

Women are viscerally repulsed by sex, if not in fact by men, unless some form of financial transaction or hope of transaction is on the cards. In fact the moment you mention sex she fears she is about to be raped. There is nothing more frightening to a woman than a sexually aroused man who is not in a financial or potentially financial relationship with her.

If there's anything I've said here that doesn't represent the general picture feel free to point it out.

Now the usual response to this, and the only honest one is "Not all women are like that" which I take as an admission that I'm right. My statements are not universally correct, I don't claim that they are, but to say that not all women are like this is a Freudian admission that most women are, other wise it would be possible, and correct, to simply dismiss everything I say as nonsense.

The other response is "Well you've not met the right woman" or "You've not had the love of a good woman" the latter is accurate the former is not. There are "good women" some of them are very close friends of mine but they are a tiny minority of women. 

Just back from "The Taming of the Shrew" and I have to say that I love theatre. Petruchio is trying to woo Katarina and not doing to well, Katerina is wild, very wild, in fact she lifted her skirt and pissed on the stage. Literally. In fact several times she flashed her pussy at the audience and the gasps and shrieks were awesome. Meanwhile there was a guy clearly masturbating and running around with his bits out, all for comedic effect.

This is what I love about theatre more than cinema, theatre can be raw as anything. The same act done on film would never have had a tenth as much of an impact as an actual actress doing it and the censors would probably have banned it.

Theatre doesn't have that thing where violence is fine but sex is taboo.  That's not to say that theatre is more lewd than cinema but it's more free in its expression than cinema, it's more earthy anc connected to reality. Movies are for escapeism, for airbrushed perfection and ideal worlds were there are only beautiful people and everything stays within its boundries whereas theatre is about the reality and chaos of life.

In theatre taboos are broken right before your eyes and by having them broken you are forced to think about them or at least forced to acknowledge them and through them the full force of the character is exposed.

Yes. I am a bipolar lunatic. Yes I am comfortable with this; I am enlightened.  Actually this may be somewhat true. Generally in Zen its said that enlightenment comes from those periods where things are so fucked up that they just can't be rationalised thus forcing a direct experience of realtiy. That was my monday.

Seriously, I read Kafka and I'm like "Yeah but this is just a general description of life, what's the big deal?"

In 1982 during the Falklands war HMS Sheffield was hit by a Exocet missile which exploded amidships and started massive fires all over the ship, twenty odd were killed outright and many others had terrible injuries including serious burn. The ships company assembled on the fan tail to await rescue and while they were waiting for helicopters from the fleet to rescue them they sang this:  

Now some cruise ship rolls over and most people's experience of this is walking to a life boat, getting on board and going to shore and the melodrama and the supposed trauma of all this. WTF is up with people? I mean people were calling home and writing notes, WTF kind of emergency is it when you can call home or write a note in the middle of it? You know what trauma is? Trauma is the lack of mental discipline in the
 face of potential danger. It's because you've got 45 minutes to fantasize about what might happen while waiting to board a life boat and because you're not switched on enough to realize that not much is really happening and chill the fuck out.